I want to feel. I want to experience. Not for when I'm older, or to look back on, just at the time. I want to feel. Love and hope, rejection and pain. Happy, and sad. Cold and hot, rain and scorching sun. Grateful. Weary and exhausted. Satisfied, and yearning. Disappointment and success. Scared and frightened, … Continue reading I want to feel
Category: My Life
AWOL
I've been a bit AWOL lately; writing's taken a bit of a back seat because I've had a lot on. It tends to be something that drops off when I'm busy, but it's also something that keeps me sane, so it's a double-edged sword. Work is taking a priority right now, because, you know, new … Continue reading AWOL
40 things I…
...have realised: 1. I don't need an 'identity'. I've had a few over the last ten years; runner, hiker, adventurer, traveller, writer. But actually, I'm just me. With or without those things. Previously, if I stopped doing any of that I'd have worried what that meant. Could I be me? Who was I? I do … Continue reading 40 things I…
Forty (Me, in NZ)
My Dad pushed the roll of paper across the floor in the hallway, the brown sausage unravelling as it picked up speed before hitting the wall. "OK," he said, looking across at me and my brother. "What are we writing on it?" "Happy 40th birthday Mum!" we shouted. "With a BIG four-zero!" Black marker pens … Continue reading Forty (Me, in NZ)
Week one done
One week down in the new job. A pretty long week; the usual getting-set-up, reading-all-the-policies and trying-to-get-your-head-around-things as well as two days in Wellington meeting all the team from across the country. It's been a good week though. A REALLY good week. Everything is so professional, my workmates are fab, and seem to work really … Continue reading Week one done
Streams of consciousness
I feel a bit lost right now. It’s that time in between jobs where you’ve left one and not yet started the other - something I always try to do, as I find I need a decompress period, a time for mourning almost - and after weeks of to do lists, constant conversations, stress and … Continue reading Streams of consciousness
Change is always unsettling
I'm dealing with a lot of stuff right now. I hadn't realised this though, until two different people pointed it out to me. I guess that's what happens sometimes, you just get so caught up in the middle of everything that you don't always realise what you're actually caught up with. You just battle through, … Continue reading Change is always unsettling
Mr Brightside
Most people have at least one song that means something, right? That on hearing will transport them back in time, to a moment in their memory that's so clear and sharp you may as well be back there for real. One of my such songs is Mr Brightside. A classic, iconic, feel good song. One … Continue reading Mr Brightside
2020 roundup
New Years Eve, 2020. What a year aye? What can I say. I've sat here for a while, hands poised over the keyboard, but not much is coming out easily. I don't normally do end-of-year posts, and I'm not a resolution-maker, but it felt somehow fitting to write something this year. I'm keen to not … Continue reading 2020 roundup