I want to feel. I want to experience. Not for when I'm older, or to look back on, just at the time. I want to feel. Love and hope, rejection and pain. Happy, and sad. Cold and hot, rain and scorching sun. Grateful. Weary and exhausted. Satisfied, and yearning. Disappointment and success. Scared and frightened, … Continue reading I want to feel
Tag: life
Sam, Sussex, UK
'I'm turning forty at the end of July and I'm quite excited about that. And happy! I had a real wobble when I turned thirty.' Sam didn't like entering a new decade ten years ago. She says: 'There was a lot of pressure - perceived, not necessarily real - to have your ducks in a … Continue reading Sam, Sussex, UK
40 things I…
...have realised: 1. I don't need an 'identity'. I've had a few over the last ten years; runner, hiker, adventurer, traveller, writer. But actually, I'm just me. With or without those things. Previously, if I stopped doing any of that I'd have worried what that meant. Could I be me? Who was I? I do … Continue reading 40 things I…
Forty (Me, in NZ)
My Dad pushed the roll of paper across the floor in the hallway, the brown sausage unravelling as it picked up speed before hitting the wall. "OK," he said, looking across at me and my brother. "What are we writing on it?" "Happy 40th birthday Mum!" we shouted. "With a BIG four-zero!" Black marker pens … Continue reading Forty (Me, in NZ)
Week one done
One week down in the new job. A pretty long week; the usual getting-set-up, reading-all-the-policies and trying-to-get-your-head-around-things as well as two days in Wellington meeting all the team from across the country. It's been a good week though. A REALLY good week. Everything is so professional, my workmates are fab, and seem to work really … Continue reading Week one done
Leigh, Derby, UK
"Well I hadn't thought about it until you just asked me, everything was fine." Leigh pauses. Hang on, I'm turning 40. WHAT?!" He laughs and tells me it's parents that turn 40. "I'm still a kid." Leigh says he doesn't find the thought of turning 40 particularly daunting, but does think it's an interesting time. … Continue reading Leigh, Derby, UK
Kowhai, North Canterbury, NZ
"As 40 comes closer I think about it on a weekly basis; it definitely feels like quite an important milestone for me, a stake in the ground to which to compare the rest of my life against." Kowhai is looking forward to turning 40. She says: "I've come through a lot of things over the … Continue reading Kowhai, North Canterbury, NZ
Ben, Cheltenham, UK
"In all honesty, I'm absolutely fine about turning 40." Pause. "But..." I wait while Ben looks out the window. "Every now and then you get this thing where you think, OK, I"m nearly 40, which is basically nearly 50, that's nearly 60, 70..and you're dead." He laughs. "30 felt close to 20, 40 feels closer … Continue reading Ben, Cheltenham, UK
Kathy, Bristol, UK
"I'm OK about turning 40. I mean, there's certain things I want to tick off, but it's just a number, it's just another day." Kathy looks contemplative. "By 30, I wanted to be married, have a house, and have a kid - or at least one in the pipeline. I was pregnant on my 30th … Continue reading Kathy, Bristol, UK